46 Days of Marvel
Day 42: Most Heartbreaking Moment
The cover blurb to Excalibur #75 informs us that this is Rachel’s final moment as the Phoenix. So far, this has actually turned out pretty true — seems that bird would rather bond with just about anyone else.
Anyway, as a result of Excalibur’s timeline hopping, Captain Britain was lost in the timestream. Amanda Sefton and Meggan demand that Rachel — who is time displaced herself and technically doesn’t belong in the space she is occupying — trade places with Brian. Rachel agrees, tearfully bidding farewell to her friends and teammates.
Self-sacrifice is fairly mainstream heroic. Rachel is willing to throw herself into the timestream, come what may, so that Brian gets a chance to live the life he should. Nothing to see there.
What makes this moment rough is that Rachel’s alternate parents just got married. She just got accepted by them. For the first time in a long time, she has a place to call home. In addition, her family has an expectation that this universe’s version of herself will be born soon. As Rachel leaves, she doesn’t doubt that her friends and family are going to get her back, as a baby. She asks that they love her baby self. Though she is leaving, no one is losing anything in the bargain but her.
She’s giving up the first home she’s had since she was eight years old.
She’s easily replaceable.
She’s hurling herself into the questionable life of being lost in time to save a friend from that very fate.
That all is pretty heartwrenching. And the only silver lining she has, is that she is going to be born there.
Well guess what?
She fucking wasn’t.
And she never will.
Rachel Summers is unique in the multiverse. She’s the only one of her there is.
[Image: A page from Excalibur #75.
Amanda: Kurt, I can’t hold the timeline together much longer! It’s now or never, or forever and always…your choice, Rachel.
Rachel: I appreciate the sentiment, fuzzy — but I’ve made my choice.
Rachel: Please, Kurt…not another word. Please? Kitty, promise me you’ll say “hello.”
Kitty: I - I don’t understand.
Rachel: When I’m born, to Scott and Jean. Promise me you’ll hold me in your arms… keep me safe and warm… …and give me a kiss “hello.”
Rachel: Thank you.
Have I mentioned how much I ship Rachel/Kitty lately?]
Reblogging for heartbreaking scene and excellent commentary. Rachel hoping for a future where someone she loves will “keep [her] safe and warm” my god—